You always live in the state of your own understanding, and so you become what you understand. When you believe you are your thoughts and emotions, that is what you live, but what you really are is the witness of them. You are the light of awareness. It is frightening to think of losing your illusory ego because you believe it is you; you believe that if it disappears, it means your death. In reality, your ego is your illusion. You are what is beyond the ego, watching it.
Notes to myself while reading “I Have Become Alive”, P.199, Swami Muktananda