In the process of growth in vedanta, your individuality (ego) is lost forever, like a seed which, when sprouting, loses its shape, its shell, its composition, and its very promise. It becomes that promise: a completely different thing with no resemblance whatsoever to its previous seedness. You, yourself, cannot and will not grow as long as you believe that you are your imagined ego. You need to be willing to let go of all you believed from the past, and become something you have never been, and never known, before. Only if you let go of your “seedness” will you grow.
Notes to myself while reading “From the Finite to the Infinite”, P.305, Swami Muktananda